A Dreamer Indeed

There are certain dreams that like to come out at night and make themselves so distinctly different from other dreams that when you wake up after having these certain dreams, you feel like there's a hidden message in there for you, somewhere...

I have a recurring dream that involves a particular person and every morning after said dream, I'd foolishly think it was a sign for me to reach out to them. I'd wishfully think it was the Universe's way of telling me that they were thinking about me too. Needless to say that I've made a fool of myself (more than once) by reaching out to this person in high hopes my assumption of the dream's meaning was correct.

This morning the dream was still vivid in my head and it took several hours for me to focus on "reality". My immediate impulse was to reach out and unload my heart's songs onto them again, however, something subtler, but stronger stopped me. I heard a tiny little whisper in the background, "The dream has nothing to do with them and everything to do with you." It was a powerful moment.

I have thought about last night's dream all day, spoken about the protagonist to one of my closest friends, and concluded that this recurring dream is a sign for me to pay more attention to myself, its messages are gateways to my deeper subconscious levels and as far as the person goes, they are a figment of my subconscious playing my own self in an area of my life I still have not owned. In real life, they are not even making an effort to be part of my life in any way, so it is only a matter of self-respect & worth that I stop having illusions that some day we will have some type of relationship.

I used to wish for the dreams to stop. Now, that my perspective has changed, I look forward to learning more about myself while I sleep.