While I was on my wonderful, spiritually ground-breaking cruise and I had my 3 day of walking through the valley of the shadow of death, this message popped in my head: BE VULNERABLE.
A little history on my ability of feeling vulnerable, acting vulnerable or being vulnerable: it's non-existent.
I learned early on that I needed to suck things up and get through stuff. Emotions were non-practical and they got in the way. As I got older, I never realized how much this attitude set me back. I hardly ever cried in front of people, and I was always the one EVERYONE came to with their problems, but I never felt I had anyone I could go to with my deepest, innermost feelings. Although, I am sure, there was a multitude of people ready and willing to help me or hear me out whenever I needed. The problem was that I just never knew how to act vulnerable.
Vulnerability was a feeling that terrified me. It made me feel weak, not in control and foolish. How foolish do I feel now....
In hindsight, I see that every experience I had until four years ago hindered me from growing emotionally, spiritually and feeling free. The past four years have been challenging, only because, I never allowed the outside world see my vulnerability while I felt it.
Receiving that message was so freeing, and so wonderfully ground-breaking, because, I understand the power of feeling vulnerable. It allows you to grow, to explore yourself in depths you never otherwise would, and most of all it allows others to come into your world and pour a bit of themselves into your life. It's remarkably different how my views have changed.
I still have my moments, but just remembering the message I received... I feel recharged and infinitely blessed.
My name is Camile, and sometimes, I feel very vulnerable.
5 comments:
something I've said in the past: dare to live in absolute vulnerability!
you must read "the way of the peaceful warrior" by dan millman
xoxo
I'm buying it right now!! xoxo
understand now that the vulnerability I've always felt is the greatest strength a person can have. You can't experience life without feeling life. What I've learned is that being vulnerable to somebody you love is not a weakness, it's a strength.
Elisabeth Shue
I'm a woman who carries around all these layers of fear and vulnerability.
Teri Hatcher
In the beginning, people think vulnerability will make you weak, but it does the opposite. It shows you're strong enough to care.
Victoria Pratt
When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability... To be alive is to be vulnerable.
Madeleine L'Engle
XXXX
The above was me, Helen, by the way!
Looking at your list of posts I was instantly drawn to this title to read..... Hmmmmm we both know why :) This is a wonderful post to keep returning to, and to remember how you were feeling when you wrote it. From the Truth...
Vanessa
Post a Comment