I've been away from the computer to be able to report my daily progress on my new lifestyle.
In the beginning, I had a good=pleasurable reason. The first night, I had dinner with an old high school friend, whom I care for dearly. We hadn't seen each other in over 16 years and catching up seemed so natural and open, it seemed like we hadn't seen each other no longer than a day. The second night, I had two dear friends come to visit and one stayed over night, since she lives in Orlando.
Honestly, there was not much mindful eating during these days, but I got a lot of primary food from those encounters. My need for secondary food was minimal. Essentially when I was hungry. I was filled with exhilaration from meeting with such dear people and share a little over 48 hours of careless girl talk, laughter and reminiscing.
Saturday night, it all caught up to me.
I hadn't been feeling all great already during the week. I felt my immune system warning me subtly that it wasn't at 100% speed, but I pushed myself to the limit anyway. You would think I should know better by now. Unfortunately, the adventurer part in me (or at least what is left of her) kept challenging me to keep the candle burning on both ends a little further. Saturday night, I discovered that I had a pressure sore on my sacral area (for those unfamiliar w/ what that is, I encourage you to look it up at all its stages). Not a good thing, to say the least.
My doctor, who is also a friend, called me on Friday night from her son's Capoeira class, where she had seen my sister, and sounded extremely concerned with the update on my health that my sister had given her. We played phone tag until Sunday night. I knew by Saturday night that it wold be in my best ultimate interest to respect/honor my body and give it the rest it has been BEGGING for. I've been in bed rest ever since. I, occasionally, get up to eat, shower, see the moon, play with my daughter and see the world. My life for the past 60ish hours has been spent mostly in bed, staying off my tush. Not very fun, but I am thankful for Words With Friends on iPhone (and my 20 odd opponents ;)).
Tomorrow I go for a CT-Scan to see how my body has been fighting off a lung infection discovered in the beginning of the year. For the past month, I've been antibiotic free. I'm curious to see how my precious body has done. Kudos to it, if I get a clean bill of health. I'm hopeful. Otherwise, I believe some more antibiotics (probably more aggressive ones, perhaps even another drainage of the bottom lobe... ugh). The good that has come out of it all is that I am certain my eating habits will help me beat whatever it is that is holding me down to maximize my energy. I, suddenly, had the much awaited A-HA moment. Although, I should come right back to bed after the scan, I will make a quick stop at WholeFoods and stock up in some good super foods and once again get back on track.
Thank you all in advance for all the good vibes, prayer, well-wishing thoughts - whatever you want to call them - they work! Without them, I wouldn't be here today.
Much love to all of you who read these posts.. They are usually a reminder to myself to keep myself in check, and it brightens my heart that some people are inspired by them. So many blessings and grace to all of you who read.
Afterthought:
I just came back from a little trip to my front yard, because my live-in nannie told me how beautiful the moon was. And.. Wow! It is amazing.. I came back in with another level of energy. I love the moon. The stars. And everything in between.
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