I tend to get frustrated with slow moving results, but instead I'm celebrating every tiny victory. Knowledge is power, so while my body builds itself back up to its full energy potential, I am reading, learning and discovering lots. It has been great preparation for when I feel this little beat up body of mine is ready. What I am really referring to is exercising. Prior to getting injured, I ran. I loved running. I have found a substitute exercise for running - handcycling. I tried to participate in the West Palm Beach marathon last year, but couldn't due to "not feeling right" (later I found the abscess in my lung). Now, I'm waiting, patiently, on my body to heal itself so that I can start training. I'm not pressuring myself or rushing anything. It's a goal of mine, for when I'm ready.
I've found out that food also speaks to me. Yeah, I know it sounds a little loony. I can, actually, look at a piece of fruit and feel a tingle in the area of my body that the fruit will benefit me in. It's pretty amazing. I'm having a lot of fun feeling out the energy of food and paying attention to my body's response to it.
I do believe that there is a point in our lives when everything falls into place. If there is not some type of chaos or uncomfortableness with something, to me, it means that we are too afraid of stepping out of the box and doing something out of our ordinary routine. It has been very challenging to keep myself conscious at all times of what I'm eating, thinking, feeling, doing. It requires a lot of honesty (mostly to myself), and I believe that it is a bit draining to. It is sooo much easier to drown uncomfortableness with a piece of dark chocolate or some ice cream. Facing the music and facing whatever is challenging my "dance space" head on is scary at times. However, like I said in the beginning of the paragraph... I do believe there will be a point where it will all fall into place. I'm looking forward to sharing that moment on here.
Cheers.
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