Eight years ago if anyone told me that I'd be a paraplegic, mother of a beautiful daughter and beginning to live the life of my dreams, I'd tell them they were crazy, because there was no way I'd be able to handle any of those things... Or so I used to think. I used to be the classic text-book type A personality. I loved thinking that I was in control. There is only one little problem with "thinking" you're in control - you life is limited to your own parameters.
Eight years ago, I was getting ready to go into the Police Academy, was in the best relationship I ever had in my life, and thought I was on the right track. I thought that I was finally on the way to living the life of the dreams I thought were right for me. Having been divorced for a little over 7 months, I felt free, independent and ready to take on the world.
Today, as I reflect on the chain of events that have brought me to this exact moment and place, I am humbled in immense gratitude because, although the road has been tougher than I ever imagined it would have been, it has taught me so much. It has given me so much. Most importantly, it has brought me my daughter. I feel blessed, and thankful even for the hardships that I endure on a daily basis. They keep me humbled and focused. I think what I take from it everyday is that in spite of having had an incredibly traumatic event in my life, I've chosen to channel any energy related to it into something extra-ordinary. And, because of that vision and decision, I have attracted extra-ordinary people and circumstances in my life.
Today, not only I surrender my life to a higher source to guide me and use me for the betterment of our race, I also know that I am ready to accept the life of my dreams, not only do I deserve it, we all deserve the lives of our dreams, but I welcome it with no parameters. I have been inspired by a love that was surreal to me - the love I have for my daughter. I made a promise to myself after my last hospitalization ordeal, that I'd invest 1/10 of the love I feel for her into myself... Only 1/10.. And I already see amazing results.
I am blessed beyond measure even if this blessing came in disguise in the beginning.
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